January 24, 2012

When is it Time. ?

Today I lost the light of my life, my dog Angie. 
  I cannot say much more than it was the kinder, more humane thing I did for her because I loved her so very much.. For me it is a heartbreak , I can hardly breathe .. it is that much pain... I'm not a stranger to heartbreak..
    I was with Angie to the very end.. the way it should be when you truly love.. I will get on with my life.. because thats the way I am...
  I have always believed there is something around the next corner.. but there will never be another Angie. 
         Me and Ang hugging in the morning last year. Neither of us had combed our hair yet. !


  1. My heart breaks for you, my friend -- hope you can heal.

  2. BJ, my heart breaks for you. I know the pain of losing such a dog. The loss of a friend who loves us unconditionally is a hard loss to bear. *hugs*
    Adieu, sweet Angie xx

  3. Oh BJ, I am so deeply saddened to read of your loss. The family and close friends that share our journey through life and bring us such happiness and love also bring the most pain when we lose them. I share my own personal grief with you at this difficult time. A big hug from both me and Louie.

  4. My sincere condolences to you Barbra, it is really hard to miss that unconditional love from Angie that is so special.

  5. Oh Barbra Joan...My heart breaks for you and for Angie. I am so glad she had such an amazing life, such a life filled with love. I am so sorry for your loss. My Gio has been gone for more than a year now and I still cry for him. For my big boy. And it hurts more because I wasn't there for him/with him at the end (not by choice, but it stings). I wish I could do more than send virtual hugs. Hug those kitties.

  6. Oh Barbra I am literally welling up because as you know, we lost our dog, Codi on Christmas day. It was such a terrible shock and I am still trying to come to terms with it. I had a special box made for her ashes. It is decoupaged with text from a beautiful poem which I will send to you and images of Codi during her life time. It also has little gems on each corner. Rather than the box she came back in, which reminded me of her death, the new box reminds me instead of her life and it sits on a shelf in the lounge. If you wanted a box like that for Angie, just let me know and I will give you the details of the lovely lady who makes them. I am really feeling your pain as I know exactly how you are feeling right now and I am SO, SO sorry for you :0( But oh Barbra, to lose a child, I can not bear to imagine, but to lose two... and in such a way... I can't bear it. You are such a strong woman and I so admire your spirit to keep going. I can see your children and Angie all together now and I hope that you get some comfort in that thought xxxx

  7. Here is the poem I spoke of which one of my treasured bloggy friends sent to me...

    Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
    The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. Her bright eyes are intent; Her eager body quivers. Suddenly she begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, her legs carrying him faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

    Author unknown...

  8. It is with deep sadness that I read your post. Your Angie was an absolute cutey and I know from things you've told me she was just the most perfect doggy ever. Big Hugs!!!

  9. So sorry BJ, sending you big ((hugs))

  10. I am so sorry. I sit here reading this post with tears running down my face. Hugs......

  11. I cannot thank you all enough for your kind words.. You are all animal lovers and know the kind of pain that this brings.. each and everyone of you know what I'm feeling.. Angie was my heart.. really. ... BJ

  12. Barbra,

    My heart goes out to you. So much loss.....


  13. I just read it. oh my gosh BJ> I'm crying with you honey, hang on.. sending you a big hug. She will always be with you.always.. I know just what you mean.. Love you,Diana

  14. Oh my, I'm so sorry to hear about your little Angie. Our little furry friends are so much a part of us that it is never the same when they aren't physically here anymore. They do give us so much joy. You've certainly had more than your fair share of heartbreak, but it's obvious you are a strong person and a loving person. So please accept my heartfelt sympathy and I hope you can focus on all the wonderful memories soon.

  15. Sandra I have always known about the Rainbow Bridge..It is a beautiful thing and all animal lovers should see it.. I know they have a website and am off to visit it now... thank you BJ

  16. So very sad to hear this news Barbra Joan. I had to do the same thing last summer and the pain is with me still. A friend sent this poem to me and I now pass it to you ...
    Thinking of you my dear friend.

    "When my eyes no longer say, take me for my walk today.
    When my legs no longer move, in the way that I would choose.
    Take me to that special place, where I can close my eyes with grace.
    Hold my paw and talk to me, but let me gently slip away.
    My friend you know, and I know too, this is the kindest things to do.
    Walk away, please shed no tears, remember all the happy years
    Walking over shore and hill, in the rain and winter chill.
    Your memories will always be ... of the time you spent with me."

  17. I cannot thank all of you enough for your words, Ingrid this is so beautiful, every single word true, It's what I did for her and the pain I feel now is worth it to have given her a peaceful, quiet passing.. It was the right thing. hugs to all of you and I feel your compassion,, It helps. BJ

  18. Oh, Barbra Joan - I am so very sorry and saddened to learn of your losing your beloved Angie. My heart breaks for you. I know this heartache all too well...all animal lovers know this pain. I have taken comfort from the Rainbow Bridge poem so many times throughout my life. Please always know that although your beloved Angie is not 'there' with you in the tangible, huggable, physical sense of the word, she is very much with you and will be with you always - when we keep those we dearly love in our hearts, in our memories, in our love for them, they are always with us. My Puddin', Holly, Shadow, Rudi, Finn, Pooka, Rocky and most recently, my sweet Mollie girl, who died in my arms, are still with me. I feel their love, and they knew how much they were loved and adored, throughout their lives. Your beloved Angie knew this, too. Keep that with you, Barbra Joan. Her love for you and your love for her will bolster you. My thoughts and prayers and loving hugs go out to you. - June

  19. dearest Barbra Joan, I am so sad for you. Thinking of you today.

  20. I'm so sorry for your loss. That on top of everything else you've been going through makes one wonder if God is listening. We know He is but it's still hard to keep on believing sometimes. Maybe we can take a lesson from the brave geraniums. Hang in there, things will get better.

  21. Oh my god I am so sorry. I am so so so so very sorry....I don't know what to say other than I love you and you are my MOM mom in my heart....who needs blood? I wish I was there.

  22. Thank each and every one of you...
    without your support I don't know how I would get through this.. I have to carry her in my heart and hope that someday I'll see her again. BJ